I will make my body quiet and slim.

 This loudness and having no class, uncontrolledness, I can't stand it.

 I am not being dramatic. It is how it is.

 When I was leaving from the grocery carrying all the stuff. I have imagined for a second, how I would look to others, and the answer was,... I would have looked like a big girl with a confusing presentation. Who seemingly looking okay but actually there is Much going on..not in a best way.

 I would like to have a nice place to stay, and nice farm where I can keep chickens... and I imagine myself in there with a very slim, quiet body.

Yea, I was quiet inspired by the movie "Marie Antoinette", by how Kirsten Dunst looks in this film.
So here it is. Today's muse..with her chickens.